The boyfriend and the best friend, you've probably heard that phrase over and over.
Well, what happens when its the boyfriend, the best friend, and ANOTHER boy?
I'll tell you what, shit happens.
Oh, and then you have me...
First the boyfriend. Our three month anniversary is just around the corner... and usually third times a charm, but not really in my case.
Then theres the best friend, the one that you have the most fun with, and the one that knows everything about you. Well, almost everything.
And then there's the other boy, the one that makes it VERY hard to stop thinking about him. But did I forget to mention that the other boy is the best friend's ex? Try wrapping your head around THAT.
So you have the characters, now for the story. (If only it was fiction.)
The boyfriend cares alot about me. More than you could possibly know. Which makes everything ten times more difficult. Things were going really well, until a few weeks ago when I did something very stupid and kissed another boy. I do not know what drove me to do it, I just did it. (Might I add, this boy is not one of the characters.) I don't even like the kid. I decided it would be smart to tell my boyfriend, considering he likes when I am honest. But I somehow forgot about how upset he would be. And yeah, he was pretty damn upset! I felt horrible, and I promised I would NEVER do it again. And I sure as hell meant it. So that situation has been resolved, but it is somewhat significant to the story.
Anyways, I had been kind of friendly with my best friends ex boyfriend. (Yes, this is the boy who is one of the characters.) The guy is really cute, and has a fun personality. Lately I had been going through alot at home and with my other friends, and he was willing to listen to my problems, so I opened up to him alot. He gave me great advice, but in the process I started falling for him. If I could control my feelings, trust me, I would. I started to think about him ALOT, and it took away from my focus on my boyfriend.
So this guy, he knows ALOT about me, and about my drama with my boyfriend and my friends. I trusted him alot, and he was always willing to listen. But I knew that if I did anything about him, then my best friend would hate me. But soon a giddy little attraction turned into a full blown crush.
Well I did something pretty stupid yesterday. I told this guy that I liked him. And please don't forget, I have a boyfriend. I feel really bad that I'm doing this behind my boyfriend AND best friends' back, but I felt that if I told this guy, then I would feel relieved. So I told him, but he did not give me an answer, only because he knows how much my boyfriend cares about me and he doesn't want to fuck up my relationship. But I also felt like I was liking my boyfriend less even before all this. Oh, one more thing, my boyfriend is starting to notice that I don't seem to be as interested in him as I used to be, but he assumes that it is because of the whole cheating thing. But I doubt I could work up the nerve to tell him about yet ANOTHER boy.
So now I have two options:
1) I stay with my boyfriend, but I will be thinking about this other guy nonstop
or 2) I break up with my boyfriend, and pursue this crush, but in the process I will be messing up a friendship.
I have run out of ideas, and it feels like there's no way out of this situation.
Help?
P.S. one more thing, this guy wants me to tell my best friend and be straight up with her about everything thats going on. But I'm SO nervous that shes gonna hate me. So should I tell her or no?
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breathing in the salty air with my best friend ^^
blonde again... its very hard to go a while without being blonde...its just so me :)
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me as a brunette :) whats the fun of keeping your hair the same color longer then a few months :P
